Saturday, August 25, 2012

What I have Been Thinking about lately

There are a lot of hurting people in the world, I am one of them.  I have physical pain every day, I have gone through years and years of hard, deep, dark depression... but I know without a doubt that God is in control.  I know without a doubt that there is a reason I am the way I am and I know it is because of God's intense love for me, His daughter.
This world teaches us to think that God is a hateful God that loves to just watch us suffer in this world... that is so far from the truth. 
You just need to look at the beauty in the world to see how much God loves His creation. 
One of my favorite things to do is to sit out on our back deck and watch the birds twitter from one tree to another... I watch the Robins pecking for worms in the grass... the butterflies flittering here and there... the bunnies being born in the spring and then making their home underneath our deck...
It is all because of God that I am allowed to see the beauty of His nature.
Whatever happens in this life, whatever circumstance I may find myself in... well... I am content.  My God will sustain me.  He will sustain you through whatever you are going through to, you are HIS beloved.  Reach out for Him and He will be there.

I place my trust in HIM the maker of Heaven and Earth.
Hugs and blessings my Dear Friends... you are in my thoughts.


Monday, August 20, 2012

Up To Date With My Blog Pages To Share

Hello my lovely friends here.  Thanks so much for coming by.  I have had an extremely busy summer (as you can probably tell from me not posting since August 1 :0)
I do not usually let things go like that!

On another more lovely thought... the above page was done for my big Sister Kathy.  She has requested from me a piece with an Angel using iced blue colors.  The scan really does not do this page justice, it looks so much better in person!
I completed this piece while RV'ing in my girlfriends RV while they were out of town, I guess you could say I was RV-sitting;)

I finished this one also while at the RV.  You can't really call in camping as we were watching "Gilmore Girls" while I art Journaled.  Yep, that was an awesome quiet, peaceful time.

Today I have worked on a page about my Jesus, my Savior.  I just feel Him calling me closer, calling me to go deeper into Him.
I long for Him, I need Him,
He is my strength and my shield.

I pray that your strength and your shield is standing firm over you.
Have a blessed day.


Wednesday, August 1, 2012

The Eyes of Shame

I worked on this page last week and wasn't sure what it was going to turn into... then I went to Church and Pastor Phil was speaking on the topic of "Shame". I began to see where this piece was going as eyes poked out behind all the beautiful flowers I felt like it was depicting how we can sometimes hide in life and "Shame" is the culprit. It steals our real identity in Christ. Having experienced this and having to constantly work this out with God and give it over to Him, Pastor Phil's sermon really spoke to me.
When I got married I was full of shame carried over from my past ~ I had all the characteristics of someone holding onto shame.  I was shy, self-conscious, vain and passive.  I cared so much about what other people thought about me that I would spend hours getting ready just to be perfect on the outside.  I felt stupid, uneducated, not good enough.  I didn't trust my husband...
The shame I carried wasn't only from the things in my life that I did and regretted (of course I had those things)... but also I held onto shame that wasn't even mine.  When I was little I was sexually abused, I was left alone, I was made to feel stupid and worthless (not necessarily put on me by my parents), as I grew up again... abusive boyfriend who cheated and was a compulsive liar (feelings of low self worth grounded into me until I was so little and useless on the inside).  Many things contributed to the shame I carried with me everywhere.
Today, I am free of many of those things, Jesus has set me free.  I no longer believe that I am stupid nor do I have low self-esteem (at least not to the extent I had).  I can take steps on my own and am independant in things that I never used to be.  Shame is a heavy burden, one that we are not meant to carry.  Jesus died for our shame!  He took our shame and bore it on the cross that we might live lives free of it forever.   Now we just need to give it to Him and believe that He can take it from us.
For the first time in my life I can breathe a breath of fresh, fresh air.  I can hold my head up high and see the sun, the blue sky and hear the birds chirping away...
When you are consumed with fear you cannot see/hear or experience anything else.  Give it to Him and see the life you were meant to live.
I pray for you all, may you be very blessed.