Thursday, April 26, 2012

Green Pastures

The Lord is my Shepherd,  I shall not want.  He maketh me to lay down in green pastures, He leads me beside still waters,  He restores my soul.  (Psalm 23)   

Those words are so incredibly beautiful I cannot express the amount of peace the Lord has given me from them.  When I was sick and overwhelmed with depression my Hubbub would simply speak Psalm 23 to me in its entirety and I would be able to find my way back to peace with the Lord right beside me.  He is my comfort, my happiness and my hope.

In todays world it is difficult to slow down, to breathe to take a step back from the busyness of this life... now, I am taking that step.  I am so thankful to God that He has given me this time to restore my soul... to heal my body. 

I am not working so I can concentrate on Physiotherapy and working with the Doctors on my medication.  I plan to start walking on my treadmill a little bit at a time and get some strength back in this body.  This is, once again, my time of healing.  We all need that every now and again.

I pray you are all well.  I am sorry I have been so absent from all of your blogs.  I hope I will do better soon.

Hugs and many blessings to all of you.


Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Within The Cross

This week I was consumed with getting the results of my MRI.  I was trying so hard to trust in the Lord but I found I didn't know what to pray for... was I supposed to pray for God to completely heal me? or was I supposed to pray that they would find something in the MRI so that I could have the surgery and would be completely healed from that???  These are the questions that were hard for me. 

In this drawing it was God leading me... I never really have a plan when I start to draw, I usually start from the middle and work my way out.  It wasn't until I was completely finished my drawing that I realized what God was doing inside of me.  I placed myself in the cross ~ and then I thought, wow, yes Lord!!!  I was giving myself permission to place myself on the Cross and realize that what Jesus did on the Cross was for ME too!  His grace, His love, His devotion to US... is sufficient for me too!  I needed to place my worries and concerns on the Cross and completely hand them over to HIM.  The words surrounding the cross are from the Psalms "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not upon your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your path."  I further realized (upon completing this piece) that I was talking myself into fully trusting in the Lord, to acknowledge HIM in EVERYTHING and that HE will take care of me.

So, a few days later... I call the specialist to see if the results are in... they are.  After being forwarded from one place to another I am finally at the moment of truth; "what did they find?"  and "when will my surgery be?"... these are the questions going through my mind. 

After a few moments of listening to the nurse describe the results it took me a few moments to realize that they did not find what they were looking for, only a couple of bulging discs that would not need surgery!  Much more went on in the discussion but the sum of it all was that I would not need surgery... and what did I do when I got off the phone???

I cried and I freaked out!!!!  Say what????   Yep, I was very foolish.  You see I set myself up for months thinking and preparing myself for surgery and months of recovery and then suddenly everything changed!  I hate change, I can't process change and sometimes I just need a good swift kick in the butt to realize that it's not the end of the world!!!

I should have been praising God.  I WON'T NEED SURGERY - PRAISE GOD!!!  But I was so concentrating on the pain I was suffering that I thought I knew how I was going to be fixed and that was that!!!!  God however has severely humbled me and since than has slapped my hand (figuratively speaking of coarse) and has helped me realize how very foolish I was for not trusting in Him. 

HE is MY GOD, my creator, my maker, my sustainer and my provider; HE is my healer and redeemer and my shelter and MY GOD.  HE knows me so much better than anything or person in this world will ever know me and HE certainly knows how to heal me.   

It was such a GOD THING that my son was home from school when I received the results.  He prayed with me and His words were filled with wisdom that I never could have grasped had he not been with me at that moment, he prayed "God please heal my Mom, God you are the maker of it so you know how to heal it, so we just ask that you heal it in Jesus name!"  Simple prayer really and he prayed other things but those words were like a light bulb going off in my head (TRUST IN GOD - they said to me.)  Yes God, I will trust YOU.

I will continue to see the Doctors and the Chronic Pain Clinics and the Physio for my pain, but I will trust in GOD to be the healer of my body and that He will bring me to my healing whether it be by His direct hand or through the Doctors.  Oh how I love my GOD.

I hope all of you are doing well and are finding the joy that God so richly gives.

Hugs and many blessings to you all.


Thursday, April 12, 2012

Finding Joy

What does it mean to find Joy?   Is joy lost that we should need to find it?  Actually, I believe it is!  The way of our fast-paced highly technological busy world makes it rather a difficult process to experience true joy.  I believe we have moments of joy that we grab here and there while we are living our busy lives but are those moments TRUE JOY?  or are they just little bits of happiness on the go?  When was the last time you took time out of your day to go off in search of finding some real "JOY" for your day? 
I have been very guilty of closing my eyes to the joys around me because I have busied myself with too many other things I think needed to have my attention. 
It helps not working now... for I can see the light that always surrounded me.
God is with us always, He is everywhere all the time and He has such Joy waiting for us to grasp!  We need only ask; we need only open our eyes.
Today the sun is shining brightly and I could hear the birds singing outside my window, a rabbit happily bounced up and down making me giggle.  Then he tried to force her body through an opening in our fence and I literally laughed out loud when she didn't fit and had such a chagrined look upon her cute bunny face.  I believe she was full of babies and that is why she didn't fit through the opening.
What an amazing JOY it is to think of Spring and to think of new life happening around the world, this very moment, every moment really.  God is constantly creating new life all around us.
I found my JOY for the day by just opening up my senses and being aware that God is with me.
I encourage you to take this on yourself... seek and you will find!

Hugs and blessings everyone!


Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Hello Again My Dear Friends

Well hello again!  I know I have been extremely absent from my blog for awhile, but guess what?  I am back.  I was on a 40 day fast from my blog for Lent and now it is done.  So much has happened in these last 40 days...  I am no longer working but concentrating on my healing of my body from FM and Hypermobility issues with my joints.  I will be doing a lot of Dr's visits in the next little while and praying for good results! AMEN!  My Sister is out of the hospital and at home recovering, although frustrated with the slow healing process, I think she will eventually be okay.  She will most likely feel the effects of this tragedy for the rest of her life in her body and soul but I know that with God she will find her true healing. 
I made her this Angel as per her request (she has always wanted a red-headed Angel because she has beautiful red hair herself).  I drew her as a very serene look to her face, one of almost deep concentration within trying to reveal the power of healing the Angel was giving to my sister from God.  I hated seeing my sister in so much pain, it truly broke my heart, but hearing how much joy she received from receiving my Angel for her I was blessed indeed.  I wrote her a long letter to go with it that it might entertain her and she loved that too!  She told me that when she feels well enough to sit up and actually use her hands to write, she is going to write me a long letter back:)  I had the biggest smile on my face due to her words!  I cannot physically be with her but I can certainly send her things to cheer her up!

I will share some more work that I have done during the 40 days later this week.

Many hugs and blessings Dear Friends.