Wednesday, January 25, 2012
If anyone asked me what my GIFTINGS are I would have to say one of them is definitely COMPASSION. I usually take peoples pain into myself and hurt deeply for them. God sends people into my life that need comfort, compassion, encouragement and I am THERE for the task. I do everything I can for them... but honestly... it HURTS so much! To see them hurting, to see them making wrong choices, to see them not turning to GOD ~ WOW! I know that God has His reasons for sending these people to me, I guess I wish that I could believe in the strength HE obviously believes that I have. I LOVE these individuals as if they were born of my own womb, they become apart of me and when they HURT, I HURT, when they CRY, I CRY. The most difficult thing for me is after I have done all I can do to help them through what they are going through and they no longer listen to me... then I MUST walk away and allow them to go down the path they are going to go. Although I am praying all through this journey, it's at the end of the journey for my part that I pray to be able to let them go and leave them at the foot of the CROSS. To TRUST in Jesus to take it from where I NEED to leave off. When I do this it feels like I have lost a limb... I mourn for the loss of their presence in my life as I have come to love them so deeply. However, GOD comes and fills that loss with HIS love and with HIS peace and I know that in a little while I will be okay. I trust the Lord to take care of them now.
For all the people God has placed in my life... each and everyone of them has an honorary place in my heart and I am forever changed from having them in my life. I thank God for using me in some way to hopefully touch their lives so in the future when they think of me, maybe they will see Jesus. THIS is my prayer. I know it's not for NOTHING! AMEN!
Be blessed my Dear Friends, be very blessed indeed.